this one person i know makes me so furious! in person she always makes herself the victim but in real life, she isnt. shes the instigator and shes even worse when shes on fb. then she status-es all this crap like fuck u,i hate u, ima beat the shit out of u if u dont stop that shit talking. i mean look, u dont need ppl to b all in ur businness. we all know u create drama.and its even worse when u play the “fat card”. like seriously i have nothing wrong with “fat” ppl cuz im fat myself. so i understand but i dont use it in that way. u say “o bc im fat thats y no guy want to date me and they intimidated by me”. no the truth is ur a bitch! u run off guys cuz u dont think they’re good enough to b a friend and u have a bad attitude. my cuzin is HUGE like she cant get pregnant cuz it might hurt her and kill the baby. and my cuzin has this amazing husband who is supporting her and wont leave her cuz shes freaking nice! so if u(person im furious at)were nicer, then umight get a bf. if u werent such a bitch, u wuld have friends who dont stab u in the back. and maybe if u didnt play the victim card, more ppl can take u seriously and help u out. ur lucky ur related to me. 

fredandgeorgeforever:

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its like how can i tell u stuff that has been bothering me when all it leads to is u being mad at me? if i want to tell u how i feel u end up getting mad at me. do u not want me to feel anything? do u just want me to hold it in? if thats wut u want then i’ll do it. im getting really good at it. why do u think im so fucked up inside? i hold it all in and when u pull a trigger i’ll snap. and u kno its my fault for snapping and not dealing with it but how can i? i deal with it by talking it out. u deal with it by getting over it urself. im not like u. and im trying so hard to do it ur way but im forcing it and its hurting me.  but from now on, i’ll keep shut up and wont open up again. 

Im sorry i didnt stand up for u. You were very annoying at the time but i shouldnt have let that get in the way. i didn’t know u that well either so thats y i gave into one of my friend who complained about u. i thought u know its true wut she said cuz u can be like that. and i wished i stood up for u and didnt let her control my thoughts for u but it did. high school sucks cuz girls are backstabbling and i back stabbed u in the back. i hope ud have the heart to forgive me. 

Love, Star 

you’re the greatest mom i could ever dream for. you’re such a strong mother to stay with my dad for so long. whenever i lash out at you u always forgive me as so when its vice versa. you try so hard to keep this family together and i want to say thank you. you don’t have to stay with my father anymore. i want you to leave him and live your life. you will never know how it is to be loved by a man and have him show you that. my dad put you through so much and its time to move on. not many daughters you know who knows how great their father can be but still want u to leave bc of all the emotional abuse you go thru. nobody deserves that, espeically you. i was emotionally scarred growing up hearing you and dad fight and argue. hearing you scream and him telling you gruesome things. all i did was cry and hold my sister to sleep while i heard you crying in the other room. im sorry i didnt do anything to help you. now i want to do as much as i can to help you. my sister and i are old enough that we can take care of ourselves. of course we will need jobs but our experience will lead us to that direction. you need to do whats right for you. and the one thing that has always bothered me was how u made me feel horrible about my weight. i was an early sprout, so when i reached 100 pounds in 6th grade, being 5ft tall, which was tall for the 6th grade at my school, u made me feel fat. at 12 years old i hated my weight. i have massive thighs from soccer and sports like football. i was a sportsy girl and u made me feel guilty to be so fat. then as the years go by u’d make fun of my weight gain and now u taunt me by saying look how skinny i am, maybe u shuld work out with me so ud get skinny. ur too fat now…things like that hurt my self esteem. i joined a gym to make u happy so ud shut up about my weight. i skipped meals so ud stop talking about my weight. now im fat and  i dont blame u for that but i dont like it wen u hurt me emotionally. ur suppose to b my mom. i know u were skinny back then thats y my sis is skinny. wen u had me u were only 11o pounds i know that. u dont need to rub in ur size 0 body to me all the time. ima 5 and im average. and i like that. i might be a size 7 now but who cares. if i can accept my body why can’t you? 

Love, Star