It’s been nearly a year since we’ve been friends. I gave up on our friendship because I didn’t see it worth fighting for when you gave up fighting for me. You chose your boyfriend over me, a friend of 3 years for a guy you just met two months prior to your relationship. You thought i was jealous? Of course i was jealous but that was only for a week before i realized who i really loved. the guy who left me and made me fall in love with him. But you know what, i tried to be happy for you. I really did. AND im not saying because he didn’t choose me, im saying because no matter how much he hurt me, i still stayed by your side rooting for you. no matter how much he hurt me inside, and destroyed my friendship with you, i still ask for forgivness for not staying longer. We ended our friendship for a guy. we should’ve stayed strong and fought through it like we promised each other. The main reasons why we were friends was our honesty. we never lied to one and another until he came along and we started lying to one another. You might even hate me but the truth is, he’s said some things about you that i never told you because i love you so much that im willing to take the heat for it. you might not believe me but i dont care. you know im telling the truth and to be honest, its not even worth mentioning now. I want to tell you that i forgive you for hurting me so deeply that it ruined myself. It killed a part of me that day when your boyfriend called me names and all u did was stand there and laugh, smile or didnt bother to stand up for me and tell him to stop. You have no idea how manipulative he is. The sad truth of it all is that you know he is all that but you continue to stay with him and im sorry no one will ever tel you their honest feelings about your boyfriend. And one more thing, if he truly TRUSTED you, he would never have offered that ring. YOU know you wont get married for another four to five years and he knows that too. he doesnt need to give u a ring to make u wanted. you should already feel that way. that ring symoblizes how he’s doubting your loyalty to him. he will be gone due to his military duties, so he wants to keep you on a leash. and he’s your first love, and he proposed probably one year or not even one year that you’ve guys been together. And you will never know how people truly see you. and that’s a good thing that you don’t care, but deep down inside, you do care. I hope someday you’ll forgive me and i forgive you. I’m ready to let go of all that pain and anger stored up inside. For your boyfriend, I don’t want to talk to him because he’s the one person i cant talk to. talking to him is like talking to a brick wall, a waste of my valuable time and emotions. But im willing to try because i love you. 

Love, Star