you’re the greatest mom i could ever dream for. you’re such a strong mother to stay with my dad for so long. whenever i lash out at you u always forgive me as so when its vice versa. you try so hard to keep this family together and i want to say thank you. you don’t have to stay with my father anymore. i want you to leave him and live your life. you will never know how it is to be loved by a man and have him show you that. my dad put you through so much and its time to move on. not many daughters you know who knows how great their father can be but still want u to leave bc of all the emotional abuse you go thru. nobody deserves that, espeically you. i was emotionally scarred growing up hearing you and dad fight and argue. hearing you scream and him telling you gruesome things. all i did was cry and hold my sister to sleep while i heard you crying in the other room. im sorry i didnt do anything to help you. now i want to do as much as i can to help you. my sister and i are old enough that we can take care of ourselves. of course we will need jobs but our experience will lead us to that direction. you need to do whats right for you. and the one thing that has always bothered me was how u made me feel horrible about my weight. i was an early sprout, so when i reached 100 pounds in 6th grade, being 5ft tall, which was tall for the 6th grade at my school, u made me feel fat. at 12 years old i hated my weight. i have massive thighs from soccer and sports like football. i was a sportsy girl and u made me feel guilty to be so fat. then as the years go by u’d make fun of my weight gain and now u taunt me by saying look how skinny i am, maybe u shuld work out with me so ud get skinny. ur too fat now…things like that hurt my self esteem. i joined a gym to make u happy so ud shut up about my weight. i skipped meals so ud stop talking about my weight. now im fat and  i dont blame u for that but i dont like it wen u hurt me emotionally. ur suppose to b my mom. i know u were skinny back then thats y my sis is skinny. wen u had me u were only 11o pounds i know that. u dont need to rub in ur size 0 body to me all the time. ima 5 and im average. and i like that. i might be a size 7 now but who cares. if i can accept my body why can’t you? 

Love, Star