its like how can i tell u stuff that has been bothering me when all it leads to is u being mad at me? if i want to tell u how i feel u end up getting mad at me. do u not want me to feel anything? do u just want me to hold it in? if thats wut u want then i’ll do it. im getting really good at it. why do u think im so fucked up inside? i hold it all in and when u pull a trigger i’ll snap. and u kno its my fault for snapping and not dealing with it but how can i? i deal with it by talking it out. u deal with it by getting over it urself. im not like u. and im trying so hard to do it ur way but im forcing it and its hurting me.  but from now on, i’ll keep shut up and wont open up again.